At the time, I thought I was doing the right thing. I didn’t know where our relationship was going and I still had a lot of unanswered feelings within myself about my divorce. I believed that because I did not want to bring a child into a chaotic environment, it was better to abort the baby than to bring a child into an unpleasant environment.
This was not the only time that I participated in abortion, it happened a couple more times. It was because of my fallacious belief that abortion was a better option than raising a child in a less than ideal environment. Many other people have had the same thought over the years. Whether it is because of a rocky relationship, because of poverty, fear or pain, since 1973 tens of millions of people have chosen abortion over birth.
In 2004 an amazing thing happened to me; during a time of prayer and fasting I felt this overwhelming love for the unborn child. I started to realize that every person born in this world has a God given destiny. I felt God’s cry for the unborn child and I could even see the faces of my children that did not have the chance to be born. I wept almost uncontrollably; and I recognized that no matter the circumstance, God has a purpose for every life and that I did not have the right to interfere with that purpose. The Word of God says that He knows us even before we are born and has a plan and a purpose for our life.
Jesus said, He came to give us life and to give it to the overflow (John 10:10).
Another amazing thing happened. After feeling the regret and the pain of ending the God given destiny of my children; and after weeping over the loss, I found forgiveness. I felt God’s love come over me and the burden and the guilt of abortion was lifted from my heart, I was set free. All my hurt, pain, and anger was gone. The Bible says that “whom the son sets free, is free indeed”.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from everything we’ve done wrong
(1 John 1:9). Once I had acknowledged the hurt and the pain of my mistakes, the burden was gone.
It is only when we are honest within ourselves and stand for the truth that we can be healed. Whenever we bury feelings of hurt and regret, those feelings only fester and continue to grow like a cancer. When we confess and accept mistakes in our lives, we can grow from them and receive emotional healing. Just like King David said, God desires truth in our inward parts and God is the one that restores us and makes us whole again. This was a lesson that changed my life!
Every life has value, that is God ordained. Some lives have been taken through racism, through anger. Some lives are taken because of confusion or uncertainty. Whatever the reason, God’s Grace and mercy wants to restore the hurt, offer forgiveness, and restore to His people what has been lost or stolen.
This is part of the reason I launched The 2019 movement. It is my prayer that this movement will restore the God-given destiny of Black America. The 2019 movement is pro-God and pro-family. It is a movement of reconciliation, inner healing, and equipping God’s people to receive all that He has promised them. God has called His people to greatness and we believe that God wants to restore that calling now.
He came to give us life to the overflow
by Dr. Joseph L. Green, Ph.D.
I got married relatively young. I was raised in the church and believed in family. I married my college sweetheart and by the time I was 24 years old I was married with a child. Things didn’t work out in my marriage and found myself divorced at an early age as well.
Soon after my divorce I met a young lady and we started a relationship. Early into the relationship she became pregnant. Because of the pain and uncertainty that I experienced because of my failed marriage, we decided to end the pregnancy; we chose abortion over birth.